I’ve been up for a few hours, it seems 4:30 a.m. is my wakeup time every morning now for some reason or another. I use to make fun at my grandparents for waking up at this hour! Why would anyone be up before the crack of dawn? So now it’s me. I, of course, am not my grandparents age, even though I am, and have been, a grandparent for over 19 years, funny, huh? But when you become a parent at 17 and a grandparent at 37 life comes at you very fast.
Everything in my life has come early, motherhood, grandparenthood, now cancer. But as these things have come early for me, I wouldn’t have traded them for the world. Not the ladder, but the first two, have been the joys of my life. Since I could speak, my mother told me, I would say when I grew up I wanted to be a mommy. So my dream came true. I got what I wanted in life, a family. These past few months have proven to me that nothing has meant more to me or been more important to me than the family that I have raised. My girls have been my rocks, my nurses and the loves of my life and I don’t know what I would have done without them. I have never had to ask them for help, they have stepped up and been there before my husband and I ever had to say a word. How could you ask for anything more special in your life? A grown child that becomes the caregiver instead of the being the child without asking. Did I raise them this way? Did God make them this way? Or has life experience made them the women that they are? I don’t know, but I do know that the great women they are and have become, I could not be prouder of them!
My girls are in their 30’s and are raising their own families. My oldest daughter has one already grown up and moved out on her own. It’s hard to believe that I have a grandchild that is grown and moved out of her parents house. My middle and youngest daughter’s oldest are driving. Where did time go? Twelve grandchildren and counting, my son isn’t even married yet!
I guess in quiet times I reminisce more and more. Maybe silly, but I think of all the time I wasted and didn’t spend with my children and grandchildren. How much time I wasted! If you take nothing else from this, cherish your children, love them with all your heart. Try to remember every moment you can. Take pictures and print them (that’s another story). Spend all the time you can with your family. You can never get it back.